ahdh meds are legal meth

>>25396946
I can confirm this.
Was on a mix of different pills from age 15 onward. The doctor eventually settled on a mid sized dose, with increase when needed, of biphentin at 17, around the first time I experienced what an episode of derealization/depersonalize was like which should have been a red flag.
Went to college, quit cold turkey a few months in (because I was doing "sooooo gooood"), completely dissociating everything I perceived in front of me from reality just became my reality for a brief period. The realization that if my reality was not in fact reality, then there is no consequences/no need for participation within the bounds defined before me. The climax of testing that new concept with attempted suicide, and comedown back into the real "reality" that I couldn't trust, and still held suspicions over the validity of.
That's was years ago now, but I'm pretty sure at the time I went through some kind of an amphetamine withdrawal induced psychosis. I ended up dropping out obviously (no consequences etc), and it was a really trippy period of time that's really hard to describe. I constantly felt almost separated from the world everyone else in it around me (even close, trusted friends and family) almost by a non perceiveable or invisible window or glass screen, and I didn't see things the same way can now. It was almost like watching a video game render, or a pop up book, but I could only really see or focus on one small thing out of everything I was looking at.
The meds did help while I was on them I guess, but they sure were hell when I stopped.

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recovered Jan 2021