Ok so two nights ago I tried DMT for the very first time. In short, I was not prepared for that. I knew it was gonna make me trip but I've never had these intense experiences before. Some of the things I experienced:

I started having all these racing thoughts and I noticed all the trippy colors and shapes I was seeing were turning darker and more unsettling to look at. The best way to put it is, for the first time I was physically SEEING my emotions. And what I was seeing was insecurity, anxiety, and fear. The more I looked at it I started thinking about so much bad shit about myself and bad memories, just basically all the things I didn’t like about myself. Once I overcame that, everything I was seeing turned to beautiful, more vibrant and indescribable patterns. It was symbolic how when I let go of my bad emotions, everything about the experience just elevated tremendously. I remember thinking to myself something along the lines of "if I could give up everything to feel the way I feel and be looking at what I am right now for the rest of my life, I’d do it in a heart beat".

The other thing that stood out to me about this trip was when I opened my eyes, it was like all the patterns and stuff were there but it was like my room was just added as a backdrop. I can’t describe it well, but what it made me think of is how we are all just people living our lives and experiences within a part of this dimension that we cannot see, just with a different back drop around us. Like everything is connected in a sense. Idk, I might try it again just so I can go deeper into this thought

Anyone else wanna share their experiences?

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rcvrd jan 2021