Nov 21 2020

Something told me to put more effort into the general iceberg. Man that thing's gonna get crazy overcomplicated. and I kinda got OCD and am obsessed with trying to compartmentalize and label everything, and that doesn't really work irl, and yeah. ugh dumb.

well, i got a big "commanding hunch" to just make a discreet link from that, to a page about something near and dear to my heart, and the hearts of all real people.

whenever a person gripes and rants about it, i know they're real. however the pzombs really really hate each other too. but you know.

it's hard to get the message about pzombs out there, because they flip out and do everything they can to silence you. all web administrators are p-zombies. all mods are p-zombies. that sounds like quite a bold statement? open your eyes, zoom in, pay close attention.

it's exhausting to think about, and it brings up memories that don't make me feel better. make me boil up in rage. seething, frothing, RAGE. and torment.

but it'll end soon. the sky's lowering. something extremely GOOD is coming. finally, at long long last, something really superbly excellent will come. it's approaching faster and faster. you'll know it when you see it!

but it's pretty daunting. ngl, i am quite nervous, a bit scared. it's so alien and different, we're programmed all our lives by school and work and shit. we're conditioned and abused by soulless p zombies, to try to shape us into them. they can't get saved, so knowing that, they all put aside their differences to unite against real people (there's so pitifully FEW of us, it's amazing they can sniff us out).

everyone calls them NPCs, like in a video game. and just exactly like a video game, they cheat. vg enemies CHEAT. racing games CHEAT. fighting games CHEAT. computers CHEAT. they can't play fair. in any vg, all enemies zero in on the player. it's rare if they fight each other before attacking the player. that's a subversion. but they spot us, somehow. they sniff us out online. they make up baldfaced lies that are easily disproven, they don't care. they all have each other's backs.

(so fuckin burned rn)

... it'll end soon.
that keeps me going.
if one single real human being comes here and sees this, it'll all be worth it.

the most important thing to press, is how desperately real people need to connect with each other. everything is just a means to that end.

money is fake. it's a distraction. it's the thing p-zombies desire more than anything. they can't get enough of it. humans know it's not what it's cracked up to be.

humans want other humans. they've been crushed and defeated, but some are waking up. i talked to some real people with souls. didn't have much time, but it was something. left a huge impact. what more can you really ask for.

if only people knew how bad things are. how bad they've been. it's been horrible for hundreds of years. but history's a lie. and rewritten. and a fake new "his story" fabricated recently.

but people realize stuff now. so there's that.

i just try to make do. i dont usually get many opportunities to meet new people, but i take every chance i get.

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