Dec 07 2020 I used to want to "be successful", as most people considered "success" as being. money. fame. influence. even when money isn't involved, there are things which are social currency. connections, the most valuable thing makers of stuff can have. "content creator" is cc 33. keep an eye out for when it's deliberately capitalized. i do go out of my way to avoid cc 33 phrases, if i can, and feel like making the effort. i've been making more pages right on the spot. minimal. get an idea to make a shorty short, grab a few images off the top of google image search, and throw some words on there, then some links. gettin good unique visits! i wonder if anyone i used to know is reading this site. EVENTUALLY, at some point, someone i used to know will contact me. i just know it. however, i also know we won't realize it at first. ideal scenario is they reach out with "hey i have thoughts i'm afraid to share, but you can host them and i'll be anonymous", and i'll go "okay here's the page thanks". funny how little things like that work out. it's a small, SMALL world. you ever traveled abroad, or visited another state or region, and ran into someone you know from your home town? GEE WHAT ARE THE ODDS. what are the odds indeed. i remember a kooky person, who had a theory about "magnetism". the scenario IRL was, there was a cup of popsicle sticks, with names on them. some people whose names were on those flat, wooden sticks, got the idea to put notches on them, to make them unique. there was a "ritual", where someone would get the cup of sticks with names on them, and pull one out. out of the group of like 20 people, the stick-drawer would pull out the same sticks, in the same procession. regularly. the "admin" developed some odd theory about familiarity and magnetism, but icr how she phrased it. the thought was also incomplete. ... i had some problems with that person, overstepping boundaries and being grabby and entitled to everything in existence, and no respect for personal rights. however, she was onto something. also she got sucked into an MLM haha. wonder if she's reading this now. hi! perhaps the same "personal magnetism" is what makes people from the same hometown, feel compelled to approach one another without realizing it at first. i've heard that small cultures where electronics aren't prevalent, instinctively sense where their neighbors are, at any given time. like they have an internal compass that points them to the direction of whoever they're thinking of. there was this one time where i was at a place... full of people of all walks of life and backgrounds, who had various means of going to that place where i spent a lot of time, wasted money (didn't matter, but everyone got mad like it did matter), wasted time, burnt myself out, had suicidal ideologies, so did lots of other people. same stories all over the place. anyway, at this place with all the different people, there was a bush. something compelled me to walk THREE circles around the bush. i didn't know why i did it, something just entered my head and i saw no reason to not circumambulate the bush. at the end, i found $13. that made me think of another thing someone said. someone was at a hotel in some unfamiliar state, and some mysterious force compelled them to approach a benign, generic painting on the wall. they moved the painting, and found page 666 (yes), torn from a Gideon Bible. which are usually KJV, but there are unmarked Bible "versions" published by gideon and that z- company. so, 13 is a significant number. B is 13 mushed together. R is 12 mushed together. there are people crazy obsessed with numerology, gematria, magic, and symbolism. i know for a fact that illusion magic is REAL. extremely real. i should make a page on that, sometime. but i might have to break out the gaussian blur and whatever other tools, to show the effects inside of a person's mind, their visual center of their brain, that intercepts the feed from eyeballs, before it reaches the consciousness. illusions and magic for it, are a very real thing. behaviors are also very easily manipulated. one prominent magician said he could make another person duck suddenly, by following behind them and ducking. then they'd do the same, without realizing anyone was even following them. i don't do this myself, but i'm here to raise awareness of it. /.