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the older i get the less things i find enjoyable. like i can't enjoy the things i used to enjoy a lot. i feel like i've grown out of it in a way. i've noticed that i cannot relate to people anymore that do enjoy the certain thing i was obsessed before. i think it started 3 years ago, and i know the 'age is not important, you can enjoy whatever you want to', it's not about it, it's just that i cannot relate with people in those communities anymore. i feel like i'm in some sort of a middle twenties crisis. so now i've came to this period where i just don't have anyone to talk to about anything. i wonder if others have similar issue or am i the only idiot that incapable of finding something to belong to. for some time i played sims a lot, like A LOT and i joined two discord servers, literally couldn't even join the main chat because i didn't get what the hell were they talking about. so i gave up from that. when i discovered animal crossing this summer i was so excited because it makes me so happy, so i joined that discord too but bruh, same story, can't relate with anything they're saying in there, i can only send screenshots and react to things, it's very frustrating.
just wanted to vent a little.

i'm getting an urge to revamp my whole site but ugh it's so much work to do and so little motivation and creativity, sigh. 

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zanarkand:

i totally understand. i don't know if it's the same, but when i was younger i watched a looot of anime, it was like my religion. now, it's almost annoying to me to watch something, unless i find it very, VERY interesting and if i want to. i almost feel obligated to watch it, sadly. lately i just... don't know what i even do in my spare time.
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bikobatanari:

I can relate to this as well - I just get bored consuming any shows, games, or media, so I can't relate to anyone in that regard. I only get fulfillment from creative activities like drawing now, but it's really hard to muster up the energy sometimes so I often just sit here like a vegetable ;-;